One of those days...

Have you ever had one of those days where you are completely worn out, everyone else in your family is too, nerves are raw, feelings ready to spill, and you just want to run away or hide in your bed under the covers? You feel like you have to be the steady one all the time, the one who settles arguments, keeping the peace, (including with your spouse!) but feel ready to just scream at the top of your lungs and let it all out? Some days I get sick of holding all my emotions in, biting my tongue (which I don't always do, regrettably) and being the responsible one. I just wanna have fun! It's hard to have fun though when deep down you know what you have to do. I hate my conscience! Mine is really strict with me and that's why I seem like such a rigid, no-nonsense person. Guilt is a miserable feeling too. I feel that alot. Fairly close to the conscience I suppose. Headaches are right up there with nasty "feelings" too. I seem to be having them alot more lately. Am I complaining? No, because I can still function fine. Just taking notice of the fact that I have them and thankful they are not migraines. I have a lot to be thankful for and I am really. I'm looking at my beautiful poinsettia sitting beside me and am thankful for my job. I see the ice melting outside my patio door and am thankful for my new kitchen. I hear my kids and am thankful for their health and sound minds which I have a part in shaping. So, I better go scream into my pillow (as Katrina shared with me that she does when frustrated) and get on with my life today.

Blessings to you.